Why is it so hard for me to trust God? I mean, I know that He is in control and He loves me and has a plan for my life, so why do I keep worrying and trying to take over control? How many times do I have to surrender?
Every day, every hour. The fleshly part of me dies (pun intended) a little every time I think of that.
I’ve been asking God to give me the desire to study His word and know Him better–and He has. What do I do with that? “Oh, first just let me check my email, and my facebook, and my instagram, and…….” I’ve reached a point in my life where I am constantly frustrated at myself. I know what I want to do, and want to do it. Why then is it so hard??
No, I know why. Because my flesh, my sin, the destroyer, don’t want me to. I can not let them win. I can’t just sit here with this knowledge and not do anything about it!
God, give me strength to trust You enough that I put away my fleshly addictions and desires and come before the cross. You are life itself. May I never reject that. Help me to not resist. Help me to embrace who I am in You.